ugh.

how could i be so stupid?
i push and push and push, expecting the outcome i WANT.
i try to force things, that aren't there.
this FUCKING LIFE OF MINE IS DRIVING ME OVER THE EDGE!

sure i would like for certain things to go certain ways, but like my dad always told me,
"You can want in one hand and shit in the other, see which one fills faster."

and this thing called love??
dont get me started...

FUCK FUCK FUCKKK!
seriously, what if i dont want to go to college?! i'm tired of succeeding!
is 12 years not enough for you bastards! GOD DAMNIT!

i'm just rambling now, and i have no earthly idea what im writing....